yay!!
i graduated... got my dregree...its around here somewhere...maybe over there.... ah..there it is..!

yup i graduated from my first degree. yay me!!

took a while to get here. i barely realise the acheivement..
my aunt found it funny when the ppl on stage said we should thank our family for thier support.. as my family think they deseve no credit... i did it all on my own with no support..

so yay.. though its sad that very few understand the depth of my acheivement...i dont push my circumstances on others. that the mountain i climbed was not a hill like others had, who could practically buy their degrees, or their families could.

and here i am up for another degree. masters this time.. n damn it i mised the info session on the fullbright scholarship... could have studied at a prestigious uni in america..

i have no idea what to do with myself at the moment.
in between waiting for my Masters course in Architecture to start, and picking up a few design projects...
i'm trying to keep my fitness up to par for when i get back into martial arts this year.Doind 2 different ones last year took it out of me, i was doing 6hours a week of strenous training. so i'll need all the fitness n energy i can get. i lost 20kilos last year, and am now floating around 90kilos...to the point where i'm now worried i'll get flabby bits, cos i'm losing so fast. i think i'll need to up the weight training to help keep tone as the weight drops. if i go as good this year, i'll probably also drop a weightclass in comp...

i look forward to this year, i'll be able to explore my interest in bamboo or something of equal fascination, for my thesis.

i'm still getting bookings for lifemodelling, which is good. They keep telling me i'm their favourite, or the best they have, and the students look forward to my sessions. and it keeps the wlf from the door as they say.
i'm trying to push into melbourne this year, but everywhere says they need you to be a member of the life model society, and they(LMS) never get back to me...so we'll see about that one...


my goal for last year was: work experience. got it
do a push up. couldnt at start o' year. now can do 20military ones
pass my final subjects. done with distinctions

this year:
pass my subjects
do a pull up
do a chin up
do leg lifts
bench press 30+kilos
pass another BJJ grading
pass judo grading
pay off any debts i have

we'll see how we go...

Wow, looking back 2008 was a great year for me:)! I worked in my industry n gained invaluable experience. I passed my classes with distinction, which means i now have my degree, and this year i start my masters. I toned up so that i am 2" smaller at every statistic, i lost over 15kilos, am stronger n fitter. Yet i never dieted. I came 4th at the panpacific bjj comp in september. Got my next belt in judo. I can do 20 full pushups where in 07 i could do none.

I have a job. A proper job. In my field. I eat lunch at all the exclusive paris end cafes. Im gettin a decent wage as a first stage. It can only get better:) i've only been there a week n a half. The commute is murder, but may end up movin.

Well ive been to my first confest. Its kinda like a cross between awc,'lustfest' and beltaine. Except has less pagans and more hippies. And 10times as many people. More workshops and nighttime activities. Better energy. Better organised. More space. More ants. Better first aid. better setup marketplace. Better procedures for trouble, problems and complaints...

"There are some faults slight in the sight of love, some errors slight in the estimate of wisdom; but truth forgives no insult, and endures no stain...we thank as we would thank one who dug a well in a desert; happy in that the thirst for truth still remains with us, even when we have wilfully left the fountains of it."- john ruskin 1849

Wow today is great:) what happened 2 autumn? I feel like its still the christmas holidays. I dont know if its the weather, or just my life. Had archi job interview yesterday that went well, and lunch with boy. He thinks im huggy and awesome:):$ My favourite dress is fallin off me. But i still get checked out in it. Must be the curves:). My dentist mentioned i lost weight, since she saw me 3weeks ago. I hav 2 more places for modelin work, My reputation is great. And one student wants 2 paint my portrait:)

"do you know why people come up 2 you and ask you things?" why " because your beautiful and your nice".

Ok so your stopped and picked up by a random stranger on the street because your fwoar. If wants to have coffee with you now. Do you? He instead wants coffee that night. Do you? He instead asks for your phone number and will call about coffee next week. Do you? Does his looks matter? He tries to kiss you. Do you?

i've been contemplating my ass recently, (es i know ur meant to contemplate ones navel).
i've discovered my ass is absolutely lucious!! delicious gorgious squeezable, what haveyou.

my modelling poses have been highlighting my ass recently.

anyway, the bigger question is..
was my ass always this good and i onnly just realised, if so, then why take this long??
or have i been losing weight recently and changed shape.

either way, i have a great ass!!!

I am the Bamboo Goddess.
I bend, but im hard to break.
I bring stability where i grow.
Shake the earth beneath me.
And watch my graceful dance.

I nourish.I house.I clothe.I heal.
I purify & calm.
I create & inspire.
The waters of unconcious,
of emotion, of the dark.
Flow sweet & pure through my hollow core.

Versatile. adaptable.
I Survive anywhere, anything.
Steel may be forged by fires.
But i withstand atomic blasts.
Come on!
Blunt your Toledo blade on me!!

Well. That was fun. Wore a long dark green dress n long coat with leaf pattern decoration, empire line. Got loads of comments bout How fabulous/stunning/gorgeous i looked, 2 the point where i started 2 worry it was 2 much, considerin the standard of the others. Got 2 rag on banshee, always fun. & when they only come 4 reception, spend almost all the nite outside not talkin 2 each other, & she wears the bridal colour, knoin full well what it is, well, expect 2 b derided.

Ok, so im going 2 a wedding in sep, the invite says formal. How dressy is that? Am i lookin for stuff like at the races, or school formal? Cocktail, ball? I know part of my outfit, but do i go with a knee length skirt, or floor length? And should it be the same color as the top? All gold? Or gold top n pink skirt. Such is my conundrum. Any suggestions? Bear in mind i am short n curvy.

everything in my life is on track...

mum called me this afternoon however, couldnt wait to tell me in person tomorrow.
apparently her father died this morning.
mum doesnt know what to feel/doesnt feel anything
i have no idea if i should be upset, angry, confused, blah, no idea. i had a bit of a cry, couple of tears when i finished phone call with mum, and have been distracted since.

the funeral is friday.
not sure if i will go.
though i have offered to drive people if they wish to go, cant have the travelling distance or lack of car stopping them. more for their benefit than mine if they wish to go that is.
i still havent decided if i will actually attend the funeral, the wake, or wait outside.

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umm
i think i fancy someone.
at least want to jump into bed with them.;)
prolly not gonna happen though.
i doubt he is interested at all.
but then, the taciturn fellow, its hard to tell, he doesnt open up.

Actually started something with him a while ago
but it fizzled, cos neither of us was ready to have a relationship.

now i havnt been moping after them all this time. its more a recent bubbling up.

we'll see
we'll see

i wish i could see what would happen down the road, but its prolly not for the best to.
:)

Mon: work Dont get kfc place Study til late Tues: told yes on gee west flat Uni goin well Study til late 5 hours sleep Wed: sign lease Begin service connections Throw up Look at fridges Go home Sleep on n off Thurs: pik up keys Uni Mentor meeting Pak Clean room Study til late Fri: homework Move if can Get kettle Organise fridge Trivia Sat: move as much as possible Unpak pc Study til late Sun: move n clean if need 2 Study Design done by now Mon: work on design Tues: poster presentation Wed: do specs